Tequila

by jbmarans Tuesday, November 04, 2014 0 comments

I knew this would happen eventually. I tried to prevent it from happening but it seems like I can’t do it alone. Why does it look like I’m the only one trying? Am I investing too much in this relationship?

I don’t know where I've gone wrong. All I did was to reach out to him as much as I can because in a couple of days, our classes will start. I know he’s busy with school and I’m trying to understand why we seldom talk.

I still remember a couple of months ago, we talk for like 4 hours straight or anytime we’re both available just to catch up and have fun. As I compare it now, it’s the exact opposite. We only chat, or send motherfucking how are yous. And if I got lucky, he’ll call but WTF?! After a few minutes of talking NONSENSE CRAP, he goes out first OR he’ll make an excuse just to end the MOTHERFUCKING, BORING CONVOS! It’s so FUCKING hard to do all the talking! I wait for him every day and when I already got the chance to talk to him, shit happens! He only calls when he needs SOMETHING. AM I JUST A BOOTY CALL? All he ever did was take, TAKE, AND FUCKING TAKE while I GIVE, GIVE, AND MOTHERFUCKING GIVE. It’s so frustrating!

It’s a good thing school starts tomorrow. Now I can invest my energy to something MORE IMPORTANT.

I CAN’T BELIEVE I WASTED ALL MY TIME WAITING FOR NOTHING.

THIS SHIT IS GOING NOWHERE.

D,

The truth is I stopped talking to you, not because I don’t love you anymore but because I thought I was annoying you. And I was just waiting for you to say that you miss me because I miss you every day, every hour, every minute, every second and it hurts.

I love you, I like you, I care for you, I want to be close to you but right now with what you’re doing, with the way you’re violating my standard, I can’t be close to you. As much as I want to this can’t work until you are able to change this part of you. I miss the old you.